it’s interesting because you were made you know you were joking around earlier about how you know you’re sorry not being funny right now on this podcast you’re supposed and that’s what’s interesting about that is you you have some pretty serious stuff that you do on your podcast you have some you know you kind of sometimes you open up about stuff and how you’re feeling and maybe it’s not feeling that good and and again i think that people tune into that because look man if i guess i guess i guess you could try and like fake being funny or fake being in a good mood but i i don’t think you can really fake it 100 where people really believe it and i think it’s better that you just be who you are and and you know if you’ve got something if you’re not if you feel like freaking depressed or whatever then you’re like hey this is what i feel like right now and it makes people comfortable that there’s someone like you who’s usually funny and it seems to have a pretty good life and all of a sudden they’re like hey man this is freaking hard right now for whatever reason whatever that reason right might be and you know i i think when people just knowing that someone else is kind of like there with them it’s reassuring yeah and and the other thing that’s interesting about this is you’ve been saying this whole time you know that you have a hard time with relationships and long term and all this but how long you’ve been doing your podcast for for maybe five years so five years and this is the thing about podcasts and i have the same thing where i meet people that listen to podcasts and they feel like we have a relationship yeah and they’re right right because you don’t get you don’t you don’t i mean my podcast is three four five hours long jesus dude now i see what happened to you yeah you said things probably years ago and there’s just not much in there i bet if we tickle you we’ll get them out you yeah how often do you sit down and talk to anyone for three hours or two hours i walked out of europe and i remember time i said hey that’s the longest conversation i’ve ever had in my life with anybody especially with a man you know like i didn’t have any male figure i had you know there was no male figures in my neighborhood one guy shot up a ready med 24-hour clinic and that was like the toughest dude we knew you know and he was on pills so he wasn’t even really doing it out of his own heart so you know we didn’t have a lot of uh so i think yes i’ve found more probably male influences through podcasting than anywhere else in my life really which is kind of interesting uh you know um and sometimes uh yeah i don’t know podcast is powerful and here’s one thing that’s neat too jocko is i mostly meet people who i would like to meet anyway it’s like the guy that came up to me this morning i would like to meet him in you know like he was some people it’s like i did some reality tell us when i was younger you know for a couple years on tv and i wouldn’t meet people that i didn’t know they didn’t know anything about me it’s just people that see you and that was just there was nothing to it that meant anything really so to meet people you you they know you somewhat and you so you would have some common ground you know um it’s really nice almost that’s one thing that’s interesting man i feel like god has given me this weird way where it’s like he he always is trying to show me that people care about me you know because i think for so long i didn’t feel like anybody did you know when i was real real young and i’m not complaining you know i’m not complaining about it i’m not i don’t need any self-pity i don’t need anything like that um uh but i do think it’s fascinating how you know he’ll send people in every you know every now and then somebody say something just something it’s like it’s this slow healing of this space inside of me that was just has been uncomfortable for a long time you know and so there’s powerful stuff like that going on you know so and and and sometimes i can do that for other people you know i know a friend of mine he’s in the military i think his dad had some well i i probably shouldn’t talk about might be talking out of shop but yeah just i don’t know i don’t know man i’m enjoying being alive these days a lot more because i want to see what else can unfold you know and i don’t know if i always felt like that as a kid i felt like more like every day was a battle you know whereas now i’m like man every there’s there’s a lot of good stuff out there you know and i can be a part of it whether it’s for me or somebody else if i can just do my best to take care of myself and keep myself i don’t even have to win every day but dude if i can just show up and get a strong tie dog you know what i’m saying if i can even [ __ ] tip a judge fam you know what i’m saying doug and pull out that dirty w dog you know then it’s possible and i wish darren till wouldn’t have lost honestly no homo bro
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