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the jogan experience and the reason it's taken me so long is I had a [ __ ] up thing that happened uh after I moved to the farm uh basically immediately after I moved to the farm and everything was going great uh I was uh I had a major injury that I told you about I didn't get into too much detail about it but I had a major injury in Costa Rica uh I would I I went down there for a vacation and uh there was this you know a big bonfire on the beach and everyone was having fun I went to bed in the hotel um I wake up I decide to go back to the bonfire a few hours later it's like 2 in the morning at this point the fire has gotten a lot smaller I pick up a piece of Driftwood off this beach in this remote beach right I go up to throw the Driftwood on the fire and the reason the fire had gotten smaller is the people that had been at the fire put out the fire by burying it in sand and they buried this huge bondfire that was about the size of this room in sand and so now there was just a little fire with sand covering hot coals about 4T leading up to it and I'm walking up to the thing you know Barefoot right in in in in you know in in a you know bathing suit and a t-shirt with a piece of Driftwood and my foot goes into the sand into these hot coals immediate realization uh I fall back uh so if I'd Fallen forward I mean my face would be burnt I I I I ended up uh immediately realizing what had happened uh third degree burns on both feet the top and bottom of my right foot and the strangely the top of my left foot not the bottom thankfully um and uh the nerves were completely burned off my feet so after the initial shock of it I uh wasn't in pain which was the weirdest thing and I looked down and there's a couple people came to my sort of assistance and we're putting water on it not feeling anything you know I'll get graphic cuz it's crazy but the skin is just falling off my feet oh my God uh I get help back to my room uh I'm not wanting this to be you know it's the first day I got there I'm this really ruined my vacation you know I'm I'm not feeling pain because the burns the nerves are gone so I'm literally like trying to clean it up with like some nail clippers chopping a little bit of burnt flesh off and God do you have
photos I do yeah of this yeah like when it looked like that not online i' so no on your phone I have not even need to see I need to see I haven't sounds insane I haven't even um talked about it online I didn't this first I've talked about it online yeah I never knew that you were injured I didn't want to talk about it I just didn't I it was crazy I I ended up spending two weeks in the hospital in Costa Rica and then was medevaced on an air ambulance with Charlie whoa Charlie you were there for the whole ride yeah with Charlie yeah and um did the nurses take Charlie to go potty so I had some friends who came down who were coming down anyways and they they took Charlie oh Charlie they looked after Charlie for two weeks while I so I got I got driven to the San Jose Hospital hi Charlie what's up and and she was she was worried she's adorable man she's such a sweet dog yeah I know the people that are seeing her out now like oh she's kind of freaked out but normally she's not freaked out at all oh yeah yeah she's super sweet she runs up to everybody and wagging her tail yeah super friendly it's last yeah so and as I got got to this Hospital the the the there's a surgeon from Columbia who worked there it's a great Hospital thankfully came out he said looked at my foot said we're taking you immediately into surgery oh my God and they did skin grafts off my leg and they took skin grafts like the size of a football off my right leg and stapled 60 Staples to staple the skin into my foot and uh then I come up out of surgery and the doctor says to me uh which I think he was trying to make me feel better but he said well the good news is you'll probably be able to live a normal life he says to me he the first thing he says to me oh my God and I'm you know I can't move I had a morphine going into my back uh couldn't feel anything below my waist I thought it was paralyzed they told me I would be wouldn't be able to feel anything below my waist while this while I came out of it and then I'd spend two weeks in the hospital bed and uh I was not able to get out of the hospital bed for two weeks um this is debatably too much information but it's interesting you get you get very constipated from all the medicine that's going into you and you
end up not being able to you know go to the bathroom for about a week but then you ultimately have to go and you can't get out of bed because your foot has to remain elevated oh boy got drop a log in a bucket you got to drop a log in a diaper oh Jesus and then someone's got to clean your butt and then these Costa Rican nurses come in and clean your butt and it was just a really interesting uh moment of uh Clarity for me where you realize you're humbled as a human being and you realize oh this is this is I've lost all ability to look after myself and you just kind of end up having to just kind of go with it and it was uh you know to my honest with I still think about that sometimes it wasn't the worst thing in the world no I'm just kidding but uh you know the the the uh they were very nice the nurses were very nice very sweet of them to take care of you like that so you can't put any weight on your foot cuz the bottom of your foot is that skin graft as well or just the top uh for for for the so then for the next yeah exactly and it was very delicate the skin graft for the first no was the bottom skin grafted as well yeah yeah yeah all around very very the bottom of your foot like the sole of your foot was skin grafted That's crazy cuz I would think like how do they skin graft that right does your footprint come back in the same way The Ridges the dermal ridges yeah but it's not perfect though it's interesting the it was a World War II Doctor Who invented the way of taking these skin grafts actually they did it for burn victims in in the war and they invented a some really I don't know the word for it but some tool that actually takes a micro thin layer of skin uh so micro I don't really have a scar on my leg anymore it's amazing it's a very it's almost like P less than paper thin layers of skin they take them off strips like this and then they staple it into your foot to hold it on there and um and then uh that's left on there for about I I think it was just about 2 weeks actually and then at the end of the two weeks in coaster Rica they they I had to go under three general anesthetic surgeries in Costa Rica in a Central American Hospital by myself by the way I uh I uh my mom and was you wanted to fly down my dad wanted to fly
down I was like no you know what I'm just sitting here like you know half out of it you know so just I'll just so I just spent two weeks in there and they'd go there's a second surgery where they go in and they uh checked it they had to go in and check it and so I had to go under general just to like take the bandages off cuz it's painful and then the third General one was to go in and take the Staples out and um and then medac back to Toronto to Sunnybrook Burn Center Sunnybrook Hospital Burn Center where I spent another 10 days and then for the next essentially six months Joe I was I would have to go to a doctor uh three times a week to have my bandages changed because it's like you know oozing and for six months yeah yeah it was about three times a week for the first two months and then it was like twice a week and then it was once a week and uh and they're also monitoring it for infection right because if you get an infection uh then they have to amputate your foot so it was basically six months of me just worried about I'm losing my foot you know you're am I going to have am I going to have like one testicle and one foot is this what's going on with me so so they didn't uh they didn't have to amputate my foot fortunately uh but it was pretty pretty pretty scary [ __ ] holy [ __ ] dude and uh anyways uh and then you know then it was kind of like limping for the next year and then now I'm kind of still a little wobbly but it's it's it's it's pretty good I'm I'm uh I'm just going to I I actually found some photos of this and and pulled them up because I thought you might ask when I told you about this of course now the thing about this is what's crazy is this is like this is actually this is like actually when it had healed so I mean that's that that's after it healed this this is this is months months this is maybe two months after uh I was back in Canada at this point I have some better ones sir um you know here's that's horrible here's let let's see here's you it's this is sort of healing up healing up this that's my mom my mom at thought healing up at the hospital but uh yeah it's uh damn son you got [ __ ] up yeah yeah but uh it's uh you know could have been worse right could
have been worse so yeah you're alive you're here could have been worse and you get this you get this sense of uh almost it's almost like a sense of gratitude you get afterwards because you're like I'm alive I'm here I still got my foot and it's it's so strange how that happens because it's happened to me twice now in my life because I had testicular cancer when I was when I was on MTV and I that's why I stopped the show and I'd go to the hospital they'd room my took my right testicle I still got the left one everything's fine um but uh and you go you go from there's this there's a a moment where you're like in both occasions there this moment where you're sort of traumatized by what's happening and angry about it and then it sort of almost instantly flips it must be some sort of human self-preservation kind of thing that's built into our way our minds work where you're now grateful that it's not worse you know like you know oh it's healing I still have my foot this is a learning experience you know I'm not I'm I'm not going to do that again do you think that's wired into people I think the opposite I think that's a learned skill I think that's something that you you recognize as an intelligent person like you know what I'm I should be thankful for what I have all the time and we all should it's really hard to be you get so accustomed to the way your life is that you you can't imagine if you were like sever really impaired if something horrible happened it's like after I had cancer it it sometimes it comes into my mind like a like a little bit of a light bulb or a wave like I'll think to myself you know if I'm having a a slightly bad day you know what I mean and I'll you know be like like I don't for whatever reason happens just sometimes when I'm out doing normal errands and I'm having a slightly bad day going to the gas station pumping gas or something and then I think to myself oh man at least I'm not in the hospital right now yeah dealing with some crazy you know existential life and death thing you know and so yeah maybe it is a learned thing because of of what I've been through with that because the same thing happened after I burned my
foot you know as soon as it sort of as soon as I'm you're quickly start of you go from I can't believe this has happened I'm angry I've just ruined my vacation I might lose my foot this is horrible too okay how are we going to get better how are we going to make sure that I do everything to change the bandages on time and you your whole your whole life changes right you know I'm not I'm not thinking about all the things that I'm normally stressed about whether it's work or relationships or whatever things that are just normal standard things that you're pissed off about and all of a sudden you're just oh not even thinking about that anymore I'm just thinking about making sure I don't get an inection on my foot and you're sort of treating it like a military operation trying to save your foot or trying to you know make sure that you you know make the right choices in your cancer treatment and um and then when you come out of it it is true it's possibly a learned thing you come out of it and you realize oh all that [ __ ] that I'm nor normally worried about doesn't matter compared to what what I just went through and then you can kind of maybe learn from that and you know then you as time passes you slip back into the same routine you start stressing out about the same things again but then every once in a while it pops into your head and go at least I'm not dealing with the foot's healed and I'm outside right now and everything's good I'm walking I'm talking I'm alive so gratitude